Arranged

Is it the magic of ordinary days
Or were you paired in heaven
Bond as weak as of the lace
between you and the one

peculiar case I have
about a solitary woman
see how she does crave
for what she thinks heaven

her folks get her a man
for she ought to be paired
her spirits rose high
solitude now can be shared

this one is no hero she dreamed
for he is no less than a recluse
coward, egotist, taciturn
Not me! she made the abuse

a mistake she has done sordid
listening to the fairy tales
she was left in a state morbid
faith just left her in wails

Can she turn back on her own
She got the limbs mighty strong
To stand on her own
but not a courage in the feeble heart

touch by a grief-stricken Gujju woman.

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Trying it out

crazy

The other day I was giving fundaes to my best friend about tolerating a relationship, who was already been into quite many relationships and is committed. Me! How lame! :P. Anyway I gave my untrained thoughts a chance to radiate out to him. Actually we both were high, so it hardly matters.
I said "There is no place for ego in a love relationship. Relationship is as complicated and yet as sensitive as a labyrinth. In case of friendship, take for example you and me.. we both have infinite ego and we know exaclty when its triggered out during a discussion so that we can get into a smooth course. In case of love there no place for ego man! You should be totally devoted to her, its like forgetting about yourself, like the state of Nirvana!" We also talked about infidelity and stuff. I dont remember exactly.

And then the next day, I was trying to recollect things I babbled about and laughed on my unfathomable nirvana funda. Almost immediately I looked up the definition of nirvana on wikipedia and I was surprised to see that Nirvana is Buddhist equivalent of Fanaa in sufism! And its also very true that people are crazy about the movie Fanaa and its songs whose lyrics are like " hona hai thujmein fanaa...". or " tere pyar mein ho jaaun fanaa ..."

Either I must have had the knowledge that nirvana/moksha/fanaa are equivalent and the nirvana funda came out of my subconscious or I must be crazy to think in that direction, who never been into a relationship and added to it, when I was high.

Life ----> Updated

Its been more than 15 days me writing something. I guess I was busy with exams and stuff. Finally done with fourth year. And the next year is laid before me to be experienced in a way i have never imagined before. No lectures, no exams, no assignments. Just a project, which streches for more than a year. I am scared. Not of the project but of the boredom!

Though confident about the project, there is always a space for suspicion when looking at my track record till now. Its about how committed i am to things. Well, lets see. The prof. has called me tomorrow as to officially start the DDP.

People are going away. People I am close to. Pavan left to hyd. yesterday and I helped him with his luggage. Gave a hug while he was leaving. But I had a sense we should have hanged out on a party the day before. And not to commit the same mistake, me, sai and vatsav went on a treat.

Saw the movie "Darna Jaroori Hai", the midnite show. The movie is so hillarious. Duhh. There were just 15 people I guess in the theatre. I had the sense that those so called talented/famous actors were acting for us(we three)! I mean they were trying to make us feel satisfied and were waiting for an appreciation. Alas! the movie so predictable, lame, lousy, foolish and kiddo. Dang! I was ROTFL. There was pink panther too. I guess we should have checked out that movie. Anyway it was fun. And I never knew CCD has no credit card payment! Arrgh. Atleast at huma. Anyway, Sai is leaving tomorrow.

I started reading Catch-22 and I am quite uncomfortable with the language. So amateur I am at reading that I cannot tolerate changes in writing styles. I was so addicted to the Gracia Marquez style that Joseph Heller unfortunately has to recieve pitiful comments from me. And I also did observe that I had this passion of writing poems and stuff till i was reading Gracia Marquez. Not sure.

Some things seem to be so predetermnined. All the trying hard (begging the profs and mails and stuff) just goes in vain. This time I have just left to the fate to decide about it. Nothing to worry, its about 2 of my courses. The dirty deeds done in the past haunting me. Well, they wont take my life away will they. Peace life.
And finally concluding :). I am highly impressed by this song "Mere haath mein" song from fanaa. It seems to dig out similar tunes from my favourite days. These are more of emotions than just tunes.