twisted

when you are happy as a bee,
that is what i want to see,
when you're chirping around crazy,
that is what i want from you, daisy....

rarely i do get to see such a thing,
where you carry around a zing,
merry about sweet nothings,
fluttering like you got some wings.

making my infatuation
stronger,
contorting myself more
dafter,
for.. i think it'll remain
unreturned.

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need to binge

where's the freedom i had,
where's the innocence i knew,
where's the good and bad,
where's the all that's true

where's the creature in me,
where's the soul of mine,
where's the whine and glee,
where's the all that's fine.

a creeping insipidity,
a soothing indifference,

give back my appetite,
for i need to... live a life.

eye candy

when i look into your eyes,
without a flinch or dither,
don't you see the disguise
of a growing storm within?

each time...
i make and break
the same resolution,
a never-ending 
cycle of reverberation, 
i cannot stop this
new familiarity
which takes me away
from solidarity

a reverberation
i cannot stop
which is tuned 
to the lazy heart.

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Why God, Why!

I have definitely come to a conclusion that ignorance is a social trait. Though the event I am going to describe has to deal with a tad bit of knowledge in science or in general a 5th grade kid astronomy knowledge, I am sure that a lack of this general information about our night sky is a bit scary. Even if you were uneducated, you would know it from childhood as akashaganga in hindi ( i knew from my nani as 'palapuntha' in telugu - literally milky way).
Okay, scene - Nandhi Hills. After a nice party at home, we all decide to head, at 1AM,  to this place called nandhi hills near bangalore. We make a stop at a right spot, some 1150mts above mean sea level, to marvel at the beauty of the sky and the dark vastness ( or vast darkness? ) spread into the hills and the land. We send a J. Everyone is like relaxed and admiring the stars - some looking for shooting stars ( G., you are right man, they aint no stars - its stones, meteoroids is a nice term, falling into the atmosphere and burning). I had my eyes on the hazy white stripe running across the sky and, like everyone else who were saying obvious things about what they see(hey, i saw a shooting star), I made a comment on this beautiful stretch. "Look at our galaxy man, it looks great". This guy is supposedly into software (psuedo technology), so I know I din't bump the comment into someone who is living a mystic world of art, abstractness and philosophy. He laughs at me and says  "Dude, what are you high on man, those are the clouds!" or something like that. I reverted back saying "Dude, its the fucking milkyway man, you din't know or wot"? My loud voice made it reach to everyone else, making them laugh with unstoppable spasms. Happens with the J. And then it started, 9 Vs 1. People mocking at the galaxy comment, some trying to rectify me saying it could be some light from somewhere and sorts. One specimen said, its a "Constellation". She repeated, as though its going to add weight to an empty logical answer, assuring herself. Lets see - constellation is something where in you have some 3 to 15 stars together to form a meaningful object or a living thing look alike to the human eye (they are also the sun sings you so blindly believe in). I see a white band, almost straight, thick. Unless you were imagining it to be a white thick dick look-alike, that thing could never be close to a constellation. I wonder how the greek mythology missed this big constellation. By the way I just got to know an another definition of constellation by the scientific community - its some region defined by International Astronomical Union. And I am sure you were not referring to this - that should not have made you miss the milkyway knowledge anyway in the first place. I wish I had this argument right on at that time - it would be futile though - drowned in the J. ness. The thing ended with me explaining to a guy - that milkyway is disc shaped and that we are at the edge - so when you look towards the center of the galaxy you see so many stars clustered - you see the white band. And for people who can't fathom the complexity of spacial 3D, I said that our galaxy got the name milkyway because of that white band! Whoosh. Not convincing enough. I am glad it din't convince them so easily else I could have been a prophet. I left it for them to read from somewhere later or even better just not care about it. Earth is flat! So is your face, blank.
It's not about milkyway.
Anyhow, the trip to nandhi hills was awesome! And to keep updated on the previous post-  i AM on my way - got an FZ16!

The thought of taking a break from work has been lingering me since a few weeks. I am not sure if the work is tiresome or boring but the most important thing I realised was that you, as an individual, are not as important a human resource in a big firm. And so this lack of false sense of responsibility is an awesome feeling which I want to explore being at home. I got two ideas. One of the two ideas is to be at home, have mom's food to heart's conent, catch-up with old buddies, watch telugu movies and maybe give some liberal gyan to family people. But then I have to also bear the constant adivce/nag from parents about doing something with my career. The other idea is to saveup enough money, after buying a hip bike like FZ/R15/some cruiser, to last for atleast 2 months and stay in bangalore and to party atleast twice a week.. if possible freelance in between whenever I am fully conscious. I remember once asking our puzzle champion if he had infinite money ( or if he ever savesup such amounts), would he like to spend life lazying around, have long islands on a beach, party a lot, score chicks and sorts. He said 'no'. He said he'd like to use his brain for more productive activities, basically to keep it sharp and all. I say, nay, fuck it, give me the money. I consider the two month break I was contemplating about as a trial version of the bigger one. If I don't like it, I will stop craving to get filthy rich and get busy in silly little things as making this world easier and comfortable  for others to live, showing people how big my brains are and sorts. However, if I do like it, it would be a long odreal getting busy  to mint money using my extraordinarly mind-boggling brain skills.