Attempt to engage with time
sleep eternally without a chime
Try with people to twine
lay low without a shine
Tenacious to feel the happiness
remain in constant stolidness
Try so hard to the core
hurl away off the shore
Audacious to get enlightened
lost when known the truth
cause its entirely crap
feel stuck in this trap

a trap with liberty to choose
choices make you feel like a goose
Stranger however it may seem
that’s how in life yourself redeem

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maybe cursed with a heart
doomed by a brain
destined with a fate
victimized to a pain

gifted as a rebel
endowed with a free-thought
I feel good to tell
nothing really I got :P

God and religion, Poem

Well, I'd like to keep this very short not to cheat the enormous work thats going to come from me on this topic :D.
Of late I have been referring to many major religions and reading up the matter thats accessable to common public, atleast in a broader sense. And very recently I got in touch with a chat friend who is a devout Jain. The discussion started off with me not believing in God. Rather, I can put it as me losing the belief in God gradually, after more than 22 years, through realisation (realisation! thats ironic :P). Ofcourse, logic and intution being my swords.

The discussion, went on till me trying to prove a fault in the most peaceful religion Jainism and ended in me getting convinced that Jainism was infact successful in coveringup this fault by giving up a vent to its rigour.
I wanted to write this to publicize a poem written by the person as a message, and I found it very appealling, not as appealling as to change my opinions though. Anyway me aside :P, the poem goes as follows.

Nobody knows the power of prayer

but somebody is listening with a friendly ear
for the heart that calls

someone who knows when a sparrow falls

Miracle lies in the power of prayer

faith that can vanish all despair

hope that can bear like a holy light

and brighten the darkest night

When earthly help is of no avail

Theres one friend who will never fail

Just lift your eyes

the anwer is there

Thats the power of prayer

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I am planning to come up with my analysis and intution as a story (short,long? somewhere in b/w) :P. Lets see, what I can write and when I can write.

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absolute freedom

I’d like to do that,
yes, its possible
I’d like to do this
yes! quite possible

practicality overtook possibility
I’d neither do that nor this
living life in anonymity
to the things that are bliss

for a change.

If you try to measure my interest in ddp(thts my project) over a period of time(weeks on x-axis), :) its a stochastic gaussian white noise with a mean somewhere around 0% and a deviation of 100% :D.

I am 22 already! and I feel badly humiliated for not yet starting an earning. not even a damn stipend I can get. >:P Its terrible when you have all the time in your life and cant party. :P

Shuffle these and its my life
[Sleep(11 hours). browse. music. chat. movie.]

Y god Y!! :P